Thursday, May 5, 2011

The End is Near

The end of the semester is so near that I can actually see the proverbial "light at the end of the tunnel." It seems that I have lost my motivation and determination to complete the last of the assignments that are required. Perhaps it is due to the frustration I feel towards a professor and that I am so mentally tired that I just seem to not care anymore. My students that I work with can feel my empathy towards them when they complain how overburdened they feel with many assignments being due at the same time. I can so relate but I try to remain encouraging and reaching into the nearly empty barrel of motivation to keep them focused on the tasks at hand.
I so feel the need to share though my frustration towards someone that has been entrusted to teach me and others and while in my opinion has failed in so many ways. I am taking a course that I feel needs feedback on the multiple assignments, guidance on how to write IEPs and yet none is forthcoming, well very little. There was one difficult IEP to write and had to get guidance from others and not the teacher. Talking to others in this class it was discovered that others also had to receive assistance from others and felt frustrated. I try to be patient and understanding but what set me off today was that today 3 days after the assignment was due the professor sends an email with a website that will difficult to navigate but might be helpful in completing the assignment?! REALLY!? After the assignment is due this person offers a small bit of obscure guidance and none from her personally or a note saying hey I know all of you have already completed this but I want to give you some feedback and the opportunity to change it if necessary based on this information I failed to provide you when I should have. My apology." Okay so I am living in a fantasy world I guess. For me I will mark this as another learning experience of what type of teacher I do not want to be.
It has been suggested I write to her and thank her for the information but I will not do so for I am afraid of what else I might say. I also want to desperately call a few other people at LCSC and tell them how unhappy I am about this learning experience I received in this class- I actually feel robbed in some ways.
Okay time to get off of my soap box and get back to work.

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