Due to a dyslexic moment several months ago I am now dealing with the ramifications. I know that I need to be careful when I am entering numbers on the keyboard or any other time actually. I, however, did not triple check myself when registering for the Special Ed Praxis. 0354 should have been 0543 even the names are very similar. This has now caused me a night of very restless sleep, tears, prayers, and phone calls.
The people at the ets center can not help me and I was told to just show up and talk to the test administrators there and hope they have room for me and an extra test otherwise I forfeit my money and time.
I feel like a fool for double-triple checking this earlier. I have looked at my admissions ticket several times and when the Lord really opened my eyes I was grateful. I am ashamed though of how I first reacted and the feelings of self-anger I felt.
My wonderful daughter has spent time reminding me where I needed to place my faith, how I should react when He has given us trials and to remain calm. It has been amazing to watch her grow spiritually and have her as a reminder of to react with the Grace and faith He asks of us.
When she reminded me that this is just a small trail and that we will be facing many more as we get ready to start a new journey in a few months. These last few years I have faced many trials and become a stronger person spiritually because of them. I know that He is there for me giving me the strength and knowledge to keep going.
I need to let go of these feelings of discouragement and anxiety. Yes, I made a mistake but it can be corrected. I have the ability to overcome this and know that the journey He has placed me on is going to be fraught with many more trials but they are not to stop me but to take me where He wants me to be.
I will be there Saturday with papers in hand and a faith that this can rectified. I will continue to study and know that the knowledge is there.
The ranting is done along with the self-pity and anger. Thank you Lord.
Carrie,
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to feeling angry with yourself. I have plenty of grace for others when they make honest mistakes, but when it comes to myself I am so harsh. It's good to have people in our lives to remind us to trust that God is in control and we can trust in Him. I'm glad that your daughter was there to remind you to put your eyes back where they belong. I'm sorry to hear about your mishap, though. Good luck on your test (today, right?). Let me know how it goes! I have my tests on June 11th and another one in July some time. Talk about cutting it close. :S